Stone & Bone (by Heather Eggleston)

The wisdom of our ancestors is in the bones of the Earth (stones) and resonates in our bones.

Stones are the wisdom keepers of the Earth. Stone is the skeletal structure of our Mother, which gives her shape, structure, and density.

Bone is the skeletal structure of our own selves. Our wisdom is in our “old bones” and we feel knowings “in my bones.” Our skeleton gives us structure and shape just as the memories held in our bones accumulate to give us wisdom and strength and when honored give continuity and strength to our descendents.

When we communicate with Stone it is through our bones. We think every sort of communication is through the mind or brain but that simply isn’t so. Our bodies are sensory apparatus for experiencing the whole of reality. We communicate through our guts, hearts, gonads, water ways, and bones.

Our communication with Stones is through our bones.

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The Body as Deep Consciousness (part 2) by Heather Eggleston

Last night I dreamed about consciousness. The physical form is the “deep conscious.” It records the imprint of absolutely everything that happens to us. The body does not forget. Each component of the body records a particular aspect of experience.

The bones are calcified memory. The fascial tissue and muscles wrap themselves through everything to connect, protect, and bring mobility. Together the bones and muscles are collective memory moving through space in a process of constant creation.

Our waters hold emotions. They are vessels that hold within them the fluidity of experience and the moments of our joys and sorrows. Our waters are reinforced by the emotions we continuously dream into them. Peaceful seas, stormy oceans, and stagnant swamplands exist within. Our blood, sexual juices, and all the other fluids of the body are imprinted with the emotional realities in which we exist.

The fires are our inner heat, the digestive system, the spark that fuels us. When we eat we take in Light from an external source to spark our inner Light and maintain the deep conscious and the physical experience. This is the hub of incarnations.

The heart is the connecting point to the All. We connect with the Mother and each other. Each beat of the heart drums rhythm into the rest of the deep conscious of the body.

Our breath: the mists, our songs, inhales the blessing of the Universe and passes it through our inner landscapes. The respiratory system is the great Tree within who constantly purifies and recycles each Breath.  

The Body as Deep Consciousness (part 1) by Heather Eggleston

We are each and every one of us made of the primary element, which is Light.

Light is crystallized Love.

We are living manifestations of Love.

Each of us sings a particular vibration of Love and we harmonize together within the Whole. As above, so below. As without, so within. Each of our organs, our cells, sings in harmony within the Whole of the body.

Because we are made of Love (the primary emotion) we are active emotion (do not nominalize Love – it is constant Creation). The process of existence is to allow this purity to flow through us without restriction and, when we find restrictions, to breathe Love through them until we are free flowing again.

When we have a hit it is registered and then held in the deep consciousness of the physical body itself. This can cause restriction and twisting so we do not have to occupy the same spatial reality in which it originally occurred thus avoiding the full registry of related emotion. This delays the actual free flow of the emotions and the freedom of the physical body itself. Postural deviations in the body and mental defense mechanisms in the mind are the results of this “freezing.”

The physical form itself, the Temple, may be considered a microcosm of a uniquely imprinted spatial emotional reality.

 

Learning from Chiron, the wounded healer (part 2) by Heather Eggleston

  1. To begin take an inventory of why you are drawn to energy healing. Is it to heal a physical, emotional, or spiritual illness in yourself? Is it to pass healing to others? Is it to save the world? Is it to help heal someone you love? Is it to be a superhero? Be honest in your answers. Self-healing requires brutal honesty and recognition the answers are more complex than they may seem on the surface.

  2. Then look at your closest relationships. Are you the person everyone calls when they need something? Do you feel like your relationships are balanced with an easy flow of give and take? Do you get what you need from your partner, friends, and family members? Do you feel heard and valued for yourself in your relationships? How many of your relationships would you call “healthy”? How many are not?

  3. Next look at your traits. Do you allow yourself to be vulnerable with others or do you feel a need to keep a distance? What control mechanisms do you employ to stay “safe” with others? How do you let others know what you want, need, desire in any given moment? Are you willing to say no when you feel your boundaries are being pushed too far? How often do you fudge the truth to save someone else’s feelings? Or to protect your own?

  4. Now look at your habits. Do you eat the way you should? Get enough exercise? Are your sleep patterns healthy? Are you willing to stand up for what you need?

  5. What is your relationship to Chiron? Do you see any of the tendencies of the wounded healer in yourself? Check your astrological relationship with Chiron. Where does he live in your chart (which house)? In what sign does he sit? What does that placement tell you about your wound?

Each astrological placement is wholly unique but offers clues as to how Chiron may be acting in your life. Chiron’s house placement and aspected planets are also very important but this simple snapshot may be useful when you are taking your inventory and learning to relate to Chiron in your individual natal chart.

Chiron in Aries (or the first house) speaks to the wounded warrior. This is someone who will must make peace with his own self-worth beyond action for action’s sake. Anger, frustration, and a driving need to be a hero may show up in the life-path. In order to heal this placement must find inner peace and stillness within movement. This happens when he stops long enough to feel his own pain. It is then that this person becomes the superhero who rescues others from their own pain by being present enough for them to feel it.

Chiron in Taurus (or the second house) speaks to wounds of abandonment. This is someone who may have issues of security, poverty, and fears associated with loss. To heal this individual will need to learn to be her own strong person and may need to guard against accumulating wealth, relationships, and worldly possessions just feel safe. Her fear of not having enough must be sublimated in the bliss of knowing she is inherently supported by the All. She must learn to feel safe regardless of external circumstance. She then inspires trust by being trust.

Chiron in Gemini (or the third house) speaks to the wounded communicator. This is someone who has to watch his words that they do not wound and may be easily wounded by the harsh words of others. Gemini is a quick thinker and with this placement an individual may create elaborate mental constructs to avoid feeling wounded. This person must take down those constructs and learn the power of words to heal or harm. Once done this individual leads the way to unbinding the negative patterning of others and our larger group mind.

Chiron in Cancer (or the fourth house) speaks to the wounded empath. This is someone who feels her wounds and the wounds of others so deeply in the emotional body that she may create impenetrable walls to avoid feeling vulnerable. The danger with this placement is never allowing anyone close enough to hurt her. This person must learn to love herself enough to let others close and must taste the beauty of her own vulnerability. When she does this she serves as an empathic conduit who helps others to cleanse by her very presence.

Chiron in Leo (or the fifth house) speaks to the wounded ego. This placement may indicate someone who seems very confident (or invisible) but is deeply insecure. Behind the bluster and narcissism is someone who is tragically fragile and fears others will see through the carefully crafted facade. This person must go deep into himself to find his ego elevated and celebrate his wounds as integral parts of him rather than causes for shame. Once he achieves this he shines like the sun warming others in his radiant, if sometimes brilliantly wounded, corona.

Chiron in Virgo (or the sixth house) is the wounded healer. This a person who may be so self-absorbed in her own wounds that she disregards the pain of others or she is so absorbed in the wounds of others that she doesn’t notice where she is wounded and never confronts her shadow self. This placement must learn to serve in order to heal. Oftentimes her own suffering is the catalyst for learning to give. And at that point she becomes a healer of body and soul who tirelessly cares for others in the same way she has learned to care for herself.

Chiron in Libra (or the seventh house) is the wounded lover. This person may have idealized romantic partnerships so much that she is looking for her prince charming in every frog. Unfortunately the more frogs she kisses the more disillusioned she becomes until she realizes that the wound must be healed in herself before she can be a good partner to anyone. She must drop expectations of the Other and allow him to be as he is before he can transform into her prince. And then she is capable of the deepest, most spiritual love possible with another incarnate being. She is the muse of sacred sexuality and intimacy.

Chiron in Scorpio (or the eighth house) is the wounded shaman who mediates between the worlds. A shaman escorts others between the realms of light, life and death, and through the archetypal realms. This individual must face the big issues of sex, death, and transformation to truly heal. The deep places call to them and they may be plagued with nightmares, demons, and seemingly irrational fears until they confront the underworld and balance the light and dark in themselves. Once balanced these individuals offer a compassionate hand to hold during the darkest nights of the soul.

Chiron in Sagittarius (or the ninth house) is the wounded idealist. This placement is one of a scholar and philosopher who must confront his own logical and spiritual inconsistencies to fully heal. This placement requires relentless intellectual honesty. The danger for these natives is creating fallacious philosophical constructs that prop up a worldview rather than speaking to their deeper truths. Once they reject the inadequate presuppositions of others they become inspirational teachers and guides who hold up a light so others can find their own.

Chiron in Capricorn (or the tenth house) is the wounded creator. This individual must confront his need to prove himself to the world through the accumulation of titles, power, and influence. It is important this placement look deep into himself for true self-worth rather than killing himself with a relentless drive to succeed and to be noticed for that success. The danger is sheer obsessive-compulsive, workaholic tendencies combined with the need to achieve will drown out the Soul’s true drive to make the inner Song manifest. But when confronted this placement has the ability to create lasting structures that encourage true healing.

Chiron in Aquarius (or the eleventh house) is the wounded telepath. Because this placement has an innate understanding of what others are thinking he may feel himself exposed and violated by the most commonplace interactions. Because of this he may withdraw from the social interactions that actually nourish and feed his energetic connections. Once he learns to safely navigate the group-mind he helps others to know what it means to be truly connected in a shared mind within a greater organism. He willingly gives his hard-earned knowing to benefit the All..

Chiron in Pisces (or the twelfth house) is the wounded mystic. This individual has to forge a spiritual connection to the Divine in order to heal. She may feel somehow betrayed by God and the traditional religions and for whatever reason may resist deep connections with her spiritual self. But she is deeply psychic and soulful and so she must learn to connect in these ways or risks losing herself in addiction or delusion. When she allows herself to drown in Light she becomes more alive and offers her very substance as priest, conduit, and Voice.

Knowing your Chiron placement leads to ongoing conversations with this aspect of yourself. We are each made of the archetypal substance of these astrological beings and interact with them via our shared light. As we grow in authenticity we artfully uncover deeper truths about ourselves and our conversations change accordingly. Ideally we grow in wisdom and that certain peace which surpasses understanding.

Learning from Chiron, the wounded healer (part 1) (by Heather Eggleston)

The archetype of the wounded healer is one that we must eventually confront if we intend to be authentic healers. Chiron, the ruler of Virgo, is the prototype of the wounded healer. Chiron was a priest from the tribe of Centaurs, mythological half-human and half-horse creatures. The Centaurs were wild, untamed, and dangerous yet Chiron was held apart as a brilliant scholar, teacher, and healer. He took a poisoned arrow to his thigh and although he was able to heal the wounds of all others he was never able to heal his own. Because of this failure he gave up his immortality and became a constellation of stars who continues to guide others to their own healing. Astrologically the asteroid Chiron shows us where we are wounded and how to heal those wounds through service. Anyone who is heavily aspected in Virgo, has Chiron and/or the north Node placed in Virgo, or has significant planets or aspects in the sixth house must confront his wounded healer as part of the life path. All those who are drawn to a healer’s path must do the same. Truly anyone who dares step into the labyrinth to heal himself must ultimately find peace with Chiron.

The wounded healer shows up in many ways. The shadow of Chiron is someone who wishes to fix everyone else while blind to her own flaws and inconsistencies. Someone who judges others while refusing to make healing changes in his own life is working the shadow side of this archetype. In therapist relationships the unaware wounded healer may alternately see himself as completely healthy and the guest as diseased or only sees her own disease thereby losing perspective on the guest’s needs. The wounded healer may feel her pain deeply reflected in the pain of her guests, which blurs the boundaries and triggers her to act out her own unresolved wounds. Oftentimes the unaware wounded healer seems extremely benevolent but is busily absorbing the fears of his guests rather than allowing them to make their own changes and truly heal. This creates not only a karmic imbalance but also a saturated healer who ultimately loses track of where he ends and his guests begin. It is in these ways that unhealthy healer/guest attachments begin, healers end up taking on the illnesses of their guests, boundaries are breached, and energetic binds are formed. Another danger of the unaware wounded healer archetype playing out is the healer who is so consumed with her guests’ problems that she ignores or minimizes her own. She may dream of feeling healthy and well but delays her self-care because someone else “needs” her. This may make her feel somehow important and worthy but it ultimately leads to a depleted and sick individual. Perhaps one of the most dangerous manifestations of the wounded healer archetype is when the healer feels ultimately responsible for the health and well being of his guests. This is too great a burden for anyone to bear and it is not karmically responsible. We are here to learn to be authentic and whole human beings, not to suffer for others. We have enough to explore and heal in our own lives! When we presume to take on the sufferings of others we ill-will them to be weaker, smaller, and inadequate. This suffering on the behalf of others, which on the surface may seem noble, is ultimately cruel and demeaning. Our job is to show people how strong and brilliant they are through our own honest example. It is our job to be relentless in our own authenticity and to encourage others to do the same. In this way we join Chiron in the Stars as beacons shining our brilliant lights.

A Meditation on group-Heart and wisdom from the people of the Green (by Heather Eggleston)

Listen. This is your space to hear and feel. Know this. Settle in to your skin. Feel the edges of your form. Then feel the edges of your aura. Now pull your attention inward. And feel your center. It does not matter where the center of you is. For some the center may be the little toe on the right foot. For some it is in the heart or closer to the throat or in the gut or in the left shoulder. It is the center of you. Feel the center of you. If the center of you will move itself then let it move itself. let it flow and watch its movement without worries or without judging or thinking it. Just let it move and feel its movement and feel the patterns that follow in its moving. The center of things is never one place only. The center of things is never one heart only. It is all places and hearts. It is the waves of everything. The center of things is the place where the World Tree roots itself into the beginnings, ends, and betweens of all times. The axis mundi. The center of the Worlds. Feel this in you.

(Be Still)

Yes, as your attention settles into a space it may move. Laugh with this. Do not be frustrated or fearful as your center of motion shifts. Be everything at once.

(Be Still)

Now feel the center of things expand. Feel the single shifting point grow in detail and expand like a little pinprint growing larger. This center expands out like a big ball that holds you in the middle of it, bouncing with each thought, with each breath. Moving you with it, up and down, and up and down. Isn’t this fun? You are a great bouncing ball! Watch the world outside you as you bounce throughout time and throughout space. Dip your toes in the swirls of water of the Oceans as you bounce off the waves. Hear the Stars sing to you as you bounce through the heavens. Feel the warmth of the Sun as you bounce off its rays, allowing your own inner Star to flare in recognition and gratitude. A great cosmic bouncing ball.

(Be Still)

Now listen. Below you there is a beating. A drumming. A steady pulsing of slow, deep, drums. You feel this pulse outside you and suddenly, instantaneously, you feel it inside you as well. Steady, slow, pulsing. It vibrates in you like nothing you’d imagined. Your bouncing slows and the sphere around is drawn down, deep. Down where the beating becomes louder, echoing in your ears, pulling you into the body of Earth herself. Under Earth, in the crystalline structure below, you pulse, feeling yourself growing older, deeper, ancient. You begin to know the things of Stone. You feel the ages and cycles of Earths passed and yet to come in your bones as your bones slowly, so slowly remember they are Stone with the wisdom of all Creation in their structure. You are the skeleton of the Earth and the structure upon which all else is built. You are crystal, rock, sediment, and caves. You are the mountains that touch the sky. You carry the wisdom of ages in your bones. You are living, dynamic, pulsing. You are beating. You are drumming. You are Stone.

(Be Still)

Now feel the drum-beat in your heart. At first it may feel like an echo as the vibration carries itself through you. Allow your heartbeat and the pulsing of the Stone to wrap around each other until they become one rhythm.

(Be Still)

Now a wind moves over you and the slightest breath is whispered into your head. This breath, this blessing, touches your heart and as it does you are washed in the most verdant green you have ever imagined. Brighter than emeralds and deeper than forest canopies. As this green washes your heart it beats with greater life. Greater vitality. It beats with a solidity and purpose. And with each and every beat your heart expands, growing larger and larger. With each beat living, breathing vines grow in every direction. These tendrils grow out, reaching towards the world. They root in, reaching into Mystery. The grow in and out, up and down, reaching all directions at once, connecting the inner spaces to the outer spaces.

(Be Still)

As these vines grow, like tributaries from a central spring, they entwine their green fingers around the fingers of those closest to them, reaching for each other. Connecting heart to heart. Green to Green. As these beautiful connections are made feel the original breath of wind in your hair pass through each vein of Green from one tendril to the next as we pass the blessing to each other, letting it grow, knowing we are intimately connected. Feel nourishment pass through these external roots, feeding the deepest connections within. Feel empathy for all Creation in the beating of Our heart. Be there now.

On Needless Suffering, Empathy, and Healing (by Heather Eggleston)

Empathy is NOT about suffering. Now in some metaphysical thought empathy and empathic healing are lauded as a virtue and as a sacrifice. Healers who are too empathic are thought to become porous and take on their guests pain/disease and often are said to die young because of it. It used to be said that many healers have extra weight because they are protecting themselves from those they heal. This has to do with the healer as martyr idea and the wounded healer archetype.

This is because pain has in many ways become a virtue to us. We suffer for others and think it is nobility when really it is simply accumulated suffering. Snow-ball of ick. It is not virtue to suffer needlessly. It is stupid.

There is a place for suffering in this world (of course) and it is something we must all do to

1) generate enough experience to push us out of self-limiting mind loops both personal and cultural or

2) find a heart-space in which we offer up ourselves to Divine Service

3) some rare (and blessed) individuals choose to suffer on the behalf of others but this is a whole different arrangement

So suffering has its higher good, of course. But to suffer needlessly is to keep ourselves locked in darkness and truly is lazy. Repeat. Needless suffering, whether on one’s own behalf or the behalf of another, is lazy. Needless suffering becomes self-fulfilling and delays our growth keeping us in a state of sloth and emotional junk.

So when we are in a place of emotional suffering ask if it is needless or needful. Is it pushing us towards greater Service or is it keeping us locked in our own melodramas? This is a simple question that when answered honestly and sometimes brutally will cut through many of our mind-loops.

When you recognize the suffering is needless then

1) Stop flogging yourself

2) Step out of judgment completely

3) Have a good cleanse, cry, or smudge

4) Drink a big glass of blessed water remembering that our internal waters must be kept cleansed or we hold too much junk.  

Today I choose not to engage in needless suffering and observe what changes around and within me.